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i'm sick of this skin already. its so not me lah! shall change it after exams. zz.
and i'm having flu that is so freaking irritating, and a sorethroat. so when i sing my voice turn dmn manly. LOL. so funny hearing myself sing.can self entertain.

everything seems different. i feel funny everytime i walk past the cathay when i go to the museum. i feel wierd when i lag inside lot one. i feel sad when i walk along the road home especially when its dark, and when i saw the cat you stopped to touch. i suddenly dont like watching movies anymore.i pay special attention when i hear someone say yishun or ngee ann. i want to go bishan everytime i stop doing something,when i'm free so i can find you. i start becoming very emo when i hear konayuki or remioromen.i rmb wad you said everytime i walk past aijisen.i feel idiotic when i see that you are online and i dun dare to talk to you because of the things i said. i keep smiling nonstop whenever i see your msg. i feel empty when i'm alone, and it just gets worse when i start thinking about you and that emptyness within me that i cant seem to fill up,that everytime i couples, that everytime i see a freaking word that starts with a j, that everytime i see someone who looks like you, it gets worse. it makes me feel like an idiot, like someone who is freaking insignificant, like strangers.maybe i'm insignificant. but can you just tell me if thats the case. please dont be so nice. or rather, please dont turn cold after being so nice and when i think that i should force myself to let go, you become very nice again. its like my world is revolving around this person who dont care, but i care. alot. i seriously hate myself. i hate it that i changed so much because of you. i hate it that i was so naive, that i let my guard down. i hate it that i'm so weak inside. i hate it that i care so much about wad you think. i hate it that i cant seem to let go. i hate it that i keep hurting myself repeatedly. i hate it that i keep making excuses. but i cant seem to bring myself to hate you. and i hate it that i'm willing to give everything up just for you to be able to see me.