___ L' Amore per Sempre ☆

我们的世界都充满伤悲

2010-02-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

my friends are all feeling emo lately. but i cant do anything to help because i cant even get out of the fix i'm in. i struggle to find the correct words to say. and everything feels so hard.

i loathe that emptiness that never seems to leave me. how pathetic. maybe 5 years down the road, i will laugh at how stupid i was.

很爱过谁会舍得

把我的梦摇醒了

宣布幸福不会来了

用心酸微笑去原谅了

也翻越了

有昨天还是好的

但明天是自己的

开始懂了

快乐是选择

2009-10-07T22:55:00.004+08:00

nothing has been going right lately.
for the first time in ages, i wished i was someone else. in a far away land. in a place, where words cant hurt others, and actions wont compromise on your sanity.

there is this question that goes: would you befriend a person like yourself, if you were to be someone else?

why would i want to be? if i myself cant even accept the person i turn out to be.
when my friend is in alot of pain,not only was i not able to help her ease her despair, i ended up mocking at things i probably should not and presing for answers when i have no right to do so.

since when did i become so insensitive, or was i never to begin with. perhaps, the problem lies with me. you are right, i have an attitude problem. at the very least, i acknowledge that. they say its never too late to change. but some mistakes, once made, can never be rectified. if it brings misery, i rather i lock myself up, in solitary, if it can spare those i hold dear that few moments of silence that they need, of which my absence perhaps will bring.

i have problems of my own. yet, compared to others, mine seem so tiny, so minute, so insignificant, so much so that i felt it would have been better, if i dont breath a word of it. problem after problem snowballing, it deprives me of the space, and the air to breath. i dont want to admit, because it makes me feel more helpless and weaker. but. slowly, and surely, it is gnawing me hollow.

it was never meant it to turn out this way, i swear.

i asked for your heart, and you gave me a stone.

2009-09-01T11:27:00.009+08:00

...

告诉自己要冷静却又无法不想你

...

我的懦弱

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已经开始让我讨厌我自己

i want time to stop.

2009-08-31T21:11:00.003+08:00

13 days to promos.

i think i'm going to have a nervous breakdown or smthn.
like real soon.
keep getting this suppressed feeling. zzz
getting vry paranoid smore.
keep panicking over every little thing.

always feel vry short of time. which obviously is true. zz
13 days omg.
how to finish.
just cse and history alone is enough to kill.
sleep around 3 plus am almost everyday. keep doing and yet i cant even finish homework let alone start revision.

for once, i wish time would just stop for me.

2009-04-01T20:47:00.002+08:00

my bday was on 26 mar.

yup. presents

a tigger that has a extremely big mouth frm the facs:D

a new bag from the island shop frm my mom.

new com frm my dad.

new shoe wallet specs. LOL

earphones.

IPOD NANO SILVER frm my cousin:D

dmn glam file frm soo sien

this compilation of love songs i wanted frm veron

mug frm sherry

hour glass frm lingyun

super AA board + 2 cute cupcakes + hp individualised hp pouch + video made specially for me frm my darling zhu family<3

bottle of stars!

afew other stuff that i cant really rmb haha sorry:X

lots of bday wishes even frm random ppl LOL

yeah. THANKS everybody:D

esp those who msg me at 12 midnite plus:D

i'm dmn touched really. haha.

2009-03-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

yay. i redid my essay and i finished it. dmn proud of myself.

2009-03-02T20:59:00.002+08:00

my blog's dead for so long that nobody bothers to come anymore. lol. thats good. so if i'm pissed enough to badmouth anyone nobody will know.

i want to strangle him and chop him up into 108 pieces.
i spent my whole bloody day writing that freaking essay. i really spent alot of time and effort on it lah. took bout 40 minutes to 1 hour to write a SINGLE paragraph. and there's 7. imagine the time i wasted on it though i concentrated on writing throughout.

and then during maths lesson today, which was after history lecture, he came to find shuyu to ask her where were our class essays. for freaking gawd's sake who will want to steal history essays lah wth? apparently he didnt lay a finger on our essays at all or see them when it was left on his table in lt2. or so he claims. so all the essays are missing. wth. problem is. i handwrote it. i freaking wrote the whole bloody essay out. which means i have no freaking soft copy so its not just like i can reprint it again. I WROTE IT lah. wtf. which means if he cant find it, i have to rewrite the whole effing thing AGAIN.wth. my first graded history essay of the year and it ends up like that. wth. i'm so gonna flame him someday.

2009-03-01T14:18:00.002+08:00

what gives a guy more say in a relationship.
why do a girl have to wait for the guy to initiate before she can do anything
why its is ok for a guy to reject a girl, yet its not for a girl to reject a guy.
why is it such that its ok for a guy to chase a girl and not for a girl to chase a guy.

he's just not that into you is a crap movie. its just male ego male ego and more male ego.
see what can man do if every single woman becomes a nun. ok that sounds wrong. i've no idea why i'm like so pissed off with the movie but seriously. its like..

this is crap. i should just concentrate on my history essay before my cousin's com blows up.

2009-03-01T13:58:00.002+08:00

the fact that i have a non working modem doesnt help that i'm letting my blog rots. since i'm still searchin for inspiration on how to even start my history essay i shall crap abit.

i have a non-existant life.

anyway. i changed my combi to pure humans. hardcore sia. so i have like no more science left. in the mean time i changeed my class too. so now i'm in the same class as yvonne's for the 5th year in the row. i am starting to wonder when will be the next time she gets pissed off with me and ignores me until something else pisses her off and she starts talkin to me. up till now it has been "COCO?". dunno how to spell. so i'm counting down till my turn. got this premotion that it wont be long lols.
the only freakin thing i regret about goin to 5L is like the time table is like shit. but then its still alright as compared to 5J cuz i felt like i was suffocating in there. yeah. dun really give a shit. anyway.that time during CHAMPS lesson me and yvonne was like arguing with lai over alot of stuff like for example SEL. dunno wad self emotional learning thing.. its like why are our emotional growth graded? -_- categorising our self identity and character into inadequately developed, adequately developed and dunno wad other shit. thats crap. if the teacher is bias against you den you can just go knock against the wall or smthn. on second thoughts knock his. or hers. wadever. i think his impression of me after that day should have become rock bottom.
so whad if wadever i say is not politically correct? i have my own stand man. and i dun give a shit about it. if i'm inadequately developed then so be it. so whad? i'm just gonna burn that freaking piece of paper up after i graduate wad. wadever. so wad if some people go blog checking. i salute you cause you have adequately developed your time management to make sure that checking blogs is within your schedule.wadever.

wadever i say here is my own personal right cuz its my blog and my mouth and my brain that is functioning because i require it to function this way and not another way cause its MY brain AND MY mouth.

if i fail my history essay, it so gonna be because of this post.
you bloody itdi;s

guess who is that. ha.

2009-01-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

i feel dmn stressed up

2009-01-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

Are ppl so unhappy when they are in love?

Yes, when they love and are not sure of being loved.

-phantom of the opera

2009-01-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

i shld stop spending money. serious.

2009-01-02T03:53:00.002+08:00

woohoo. 6 more days of stoning to go! last day of being promoter is on the 8th. say gdbye to stoning at robinson.
den on the 9 and 10 i'm giving out pamplets.hardcore earn money.

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everybody is like hardcore mugging. abit scared liao. think i cant cope nxt yr. need to find motivation. so must make sure i give it my all. yeah! wonder who my classmates and projectmates will be nxt yr. not exactly lookin forward to it.

but i had a brillant start to year 2009 so yeah haha. hopefully the rest of the year will be good for me. i'm not goin to make any resolutions cuz i probably wont remember any.so i will just make sure wadever i do i'll give everything i have and make sure i do my best. that's it haha.

and no more emoing for year 2009. forget everything bad that has happen duing 08 and learnt from my mistakes and my foolishness. hopefully this year i'll be wiser. haha

and i need to change my bad habits!! if i continue sleeping at loike 4 plus in the morn i think i'm gonna die when skl reopens. lol. must learn junan's plan. so frm tomorrow onwards sleep at 2! haha.

i miss everybody.): hopefully i'll see them soon.

2008-12-28T23:13:00.002+08:00

i feel bad. maybe i shldnt have. but what is done cannot be undone. so that is nothing i can do to change the outcome already.

which means i have to go on.

i'm bored. i dont want to continue working anymore cause all my friends at robinson ends their contract today. which means that i have lesser people to crap with during work time. which means that time will pass by very slowly. haiz.

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i give up.

2008-12-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

i think there is a big problem in me.

lols

2008-12-09T22:07:00.001+08:00

i cant stand it anymore. its none of my bloody business.

2008-12-09T21:35:00.003+08:00

you know what. it suddenly occurred to me that, they would probably not have realised that it was not pleasant for me to listen to both of them. i'm not exactly happy. and i could do without the details. being stuck somewhere in between is not exactly nice either. and it too occurred to me that, the chances of them knowing is so damn bloody small. but i cant say anything. and it also occurred to me that, maybe its time for me to start thinking and looking out for myself first before others.

and the crap thing is. the thing that people see about me is not me, but rather the people around me.

the whole thing was never once about me. it was always you.

sometimes it makes me sick playing the nice guy like for forever.

2008-12-07T11:17:00.003+08:00

i'm damn depressed.

it has always never been about me. its always someone else.i sick of being stuck in the middle.i'm not without problems.and its pissifying enough to know that i'm just a point for people to get to someone else. i'm not even trying to delude myself because i know its a fact. still.it is not my duty to help. i'm not godlike. i cant control things. think about how i feel when all i hear is someone else. look. i never said it has to be me. but i dont need to know and i dont want to help. what. i look like a motherly figure who can solve your problems because i'm fat right? what the hell do you think i'm and who the hell do you think you are. one person not enough still must have two at the same time. you mean i look like some kind of free advice center? what the hell. there is a limit to what i can say and what i can help with. stop pushing me because i'm near my limits already. i dont want to have anything to do with it anymore than i want to know about it.

being fat in this world is a crime. not being chio in this world is also a crime. you know what, i'm fat and i'm not chio. so i commited a crime and i'm paying the price for the crime now.

2008-12-04T23:42:00.001+08:00

i hope i dont regret.

haha.

trip to airport again tml. clear my thoughts.

miss you guys.

2008-12-03T23:34:00.003+08:00

screw the robinson manager.
he think he what. attitude so lousy still scold me. zz. this kind of people is.scum.

tml go watch band concert:D. finally something to look forward to.
must go buy flower for zongxian muaha.

2008-11-30T10:23:00.002+08:00

i'm very tired.

i miss everybody.

i want to fly to china to find them.

i want to see snow.

i want to go backpack travelling.

i want to watch lots and lots of movies.

i want to get my salary as fast as possible.

i want a new job that i wont get verbally abused.

i want to change my phone.

i want to get that mr bump soft toy from vivo giant.

i want no commitments.

i want to slack.

i want to go skydiving.

i want a person i can crap to every break i have.

i want to go play badminton with my friends.

i want to get myself drunk and forget about everything.

i want the exact thing that happen last november to not happen again this november.

i want people to be truthful to me because i believe what people say very easily.

i want to not believe all the nice words that i hear so easily.

i want to immune myself from what poeple say.

i want to make myself such that i wont get moved so easily.

i want to change all my bad habbits.

i want a brand new me.

i want time to rewind.

i want you back in my life.

2008-11-25T20:45:00.002+08:00

they suck luh.

now i'm goin to raffles place robinson. sian lah. go there confirm will kena sack de lah. the crowd there is forever little. wont have sales de lah. if sales bad they sack you. they sack you they wont give you pay. which means i go there no sales cuz no crowd so confirm will get sacked so i wont have pay. WTF. someone who already got sacked didnt get any pay. den amos is getting sacked too, and he wont get any pay too. they never even tell him. if i were him i wldnt even turn up for work already. leong jie is not safe either. so everybody is like getting sacked soon. or already sacked. =.=

wth. what a freaking fraud company.

if i get sacked with no pay, i'm goin to burn down all the stuff. and i'm goin to complain them to the ministry of manpower, and i'm goin to sue them.

wth. screw them.

i'm damn pissed.

2008-11-20T23:10:00.002+08:00

2 words.

bloody tired.

crap. have to stand the whole day cannot even sit. rawr.

hate eating alone. so i'm not gonna go for breaks now since leong jie is gone. zzz.

sian. and i cant take leave for the week before christmas and that week during christmas. which means i cant go for celebrations anymore. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

3 words.

ultra no life.

2008-11-18T22:55:00.003+08:00

this is too go to be missed. for madel's sake. HAHA
this is a convo between me and huanjun.

It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd = huanjun
L' inganno 4K <3 =me

It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
maedaline got promoted too right?
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
yeahyeah
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
cos she was pretty damn down about it
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
the previous times we met I mean.
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
if you dun get promoted you get advanced
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
=.=
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
which is the same
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
no diff
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
lmao
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
you dunno how to spell her name or you type wrongly LOL
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
type wrong lah wah piabng.
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
piang*
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
typo
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
how do you spell her name, anyway?>
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
just in case...
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
a
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
you show me how you spell first
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
muaha
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
madaline.
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
wrong haha
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
oh damn
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
try some more.
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
wait.
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
medaline.
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
wrong
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
LOL
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
mederline
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
err
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
worse and worse?
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
yeah
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
maedeline?
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
LOL
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
medeline?
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
halfway
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
OOHHH
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
medeline halfway!!
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
is it?
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
HUH
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
medeline halfway!!??
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
LOL
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
no as in...
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
medeline=almost there!
It falls into place? Odd. Decidedly odd. says:
is it?
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
erm
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
halfway there
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
still far but yeah
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
medelane
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
no scratch that.
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
medeleene
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
medeleine?
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
wah
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
close
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
maedeleine?
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
even closer
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
extra alphabet
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
madeleine?
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
yeahyeah
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
eeeeeeeeeeeeee
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
you entertaining me or you know how to spell de
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
=.=
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
WHOOOOOOOO
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
no no, I just learnt again!
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
oh gods her name is a terror.

L' inganno 4K <3 says:
LOL
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
i'm goin to copy this whole thing and show it to her
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
LOL

Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
crap
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
knew there was gna be a catch-22 in there somewhere.
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
she's gonna laugh her ass off at me.
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
dammit.

L' inganno 4K <3 says:
LOL yeah
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
i shall be kind

Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
yay
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
thank god.
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
alright...
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
I think I'm going off to sleep soon so...

L' inganno 4K <3 says:
and put some of it nia
L' inganno 4K <3 says:
hahaha

Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
yeah, goodnight!
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
HAha.
Freaked the shit out of you...hell, freaked the shit out of me too. Don't worry, i'm scared shitless too, if that helps. says:
damn catch.

L' inganno 4K <3 says:
HAHA

i think its dmn retarded. LOL

2008-11-18T22:29:00.003+08:00

i went shopping today.SHOPPING. oh my. i'm changing.
anyway. wierd thing is, i bought something. tts the main point. lawls.

I'M STARTING WORK TML. TML TML TML. its either 12-8 or 1-9. not sure bout my shift but i think it will have to be 1-9 cause i'm teaching tuition in the morning. rawr.

guess wad i'm working as.
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PROMOTER!

ok, main thing not being promoter. its the THING i'm promoting.
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remote controlled cars and planes!!!!
yay! super high now. my favourite sia. i love playing them.
yeah. the reason why i accepted the job is because i like to play with them. then i can play with them everyday liao. MUAHAHAHAHA.

but super sad thing is, i cant take fri, sat, sun off. and i cant go out anymore):
and i cant challenge junan 7h poker le. cuz by the time i come back home, i wld be knocked out. zz. sad.

wads even sadder is: the pay is only $5. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...
but that is like better than WEISHENG's ICECREAM SELLING. muahaha.
5/hr means i will earn $35 a day. minus transportation fee and meals is like left with $30.
so its time to go on a diet. hahahaha.

anyway, i calculated, its one week to my new phone and another week to my ipod and another week to my drum lessons! HAHAHAHAH. super high.
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but sad thing is, i cant go home for dinner anymore.): i will be very lonely leh

so next timedinner outings can come find me!
yeah.eat dinner with me. or i will very sad de. ): LOL
anyway, i tempo at vivo. yeah haha

2008-11-18T12:10:00.002+08:00

went watch movie yest! haha with hui yee. cuz yanyi and wuyi pangsehed us. nvm we had fun too.

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life is so sian.

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the amount of time i can spend using my com is limtied too cause my laptop is gone and my com is in my mom's room and she gets pissed if i keep using. so i cant play any games at all. rawr. wadever.

i'm bored until i'm goin shopping.... can you believe it. no. ARGH wadever wadever. wad a random post.

2008-11-16T18:31:00.000+08:00

zz.today was damn sian.
went to play badminton with jerrine weijing daryll and junan.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

keep missing the ball sia. dunno wad happen to me. zzz.keep picking up shuttlecock.damn sian.

hahahahaha. weijing is....hahahahahaha

anyway, i'm like playing badminton every two days. zz. sian.
shall go watch movie.

2008-11-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

oh i forgot to mention i went out for dinner with tongjing zongxian and wenhao after i went for badminton. super lame. went to plaza sing to eat kopitiam and icecream=.= tot it was a dinner outing lah! den in the end only the four of us. zz.

anyway today.

i went to changi aipor T3! with my familly. it was quite lame. cuz there was nothin there. most of the shops werent open. boringgg. went there walk one big round drink kopi eat lunch. dmn retarded. and den we decided to go expo. even worse. there's this food exhibit or smthn. we went in there and came out in less then 10 minutes. we took so long only because we cant squeeze our way out. dmn crowded lah. and the place stink like siao. i see ppl like eating so happily, i was just gettin pushed about. cant stand the crowd so we left expo. in this duration of being in there for 10 minutes, someone spilled honey water on me. WTH. *curses* i think i totally stinked

by that time my knee already giving way liao lah. yest play badminton so hiong den today have to stand throughout the entire journey to the airport and back. super crap.and den if walking and standing wasnt enough, we went orchard to shop. ZZZ. nothing against shoppin by it was freaking tiring.
and den i went newton circus.

i need sleep. but i cant sleep before 2. zzz. RAWR.

2008-11-15T11:26:00.002+08:00

i'm very sad. i'm suppose to not take off the earring until like 2 weeks later so that the hole will exist. zz. but then yest when i was turning the earring guai-ly, i accidentally pull it off. yeah. sian. thinking that i shld wait till morning so that i can ask my mom to help me put it in cuz apparently i cant, i went to sleep at like 2 plus? then. and then. and then.. when i woke up this morning, i tried to put the earring in again, i realise there is no hole at the back of my earlobe already. zzzzzzzz. so the earring can pass through the front but cant come out from the back. so now i'm left with my right ear! RAWR. for once, i'm pissed that my skin heals so fast. now i have to go pierce again=_=. so lame.

LOL. weijing lost minesweeper to jasper 9 times. LOL. den he told jasper i never lose before so jasper came to find me to challenge. RAWR. scared like siao cuz apparently jasper didnt wan to let him go until weijing won him. luckily the minesweeper cant work. super heng.

oh. went to play badminton with this bunch of people i dun even know. they all super pro lah! wah zai. my hand now super pain lah. zz. muscle ache. i played double with dungjie. super irritated by him. thinks he look like big bird last time. rawr. den saw this person who look like guzheng from the size view sia! i think he is called weijie.=.= den my friend say there are alot of weijie in hc. LOL.anyway. playing with them was super fun. very long nvr play until so hiong le sia. LOL yay.

2008-11-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

yay have dance clique outing today! super fun(: poor jiahui is in China. HAHA too bad. i'm dead. i rejected a job offer cause i was pissed off with that person who called cuz she dmn bitch. starting to regret now yeah. haiyo. so i'm basically incomeless. and yet i'm spending moneylike nobody's business. i brought $54 out today. and then i'm left with 35 cents. wth? everyting is like sop freaking ex now.

but then the bulk of my money i spent it in goldheart. LOL. because..

i went to pierce my ears!=X

who say it isnt painful. it is lah. actually only my left ear hurts. the person say my earlobes on both sides are different. my right one is longer. and i think that is because when i'm young my mom always pull my right ear. all her fault. speaking of my mom, she is damn pissed off with me. because i when to pierce my ear without her permission when she said i could do that only when i'm 21.=_=. like legal age. and then i'm goin to the airport like 5 plus in the morning to send that bunch of retarded friends off to china. she's quite piss about that too. wadever wadever. i'm goin because its T3! muaha.

wth. he did it again. i'm never goin to trust him anymore. freak him.

2008-11-11T00:08:00.002+08:00

M1 wireless suck. i finished typing my whole post and when i wanted to ublish it the connection went off. so i have to retype evrything again cause no drafts were saved. RAWR.and i forgot wad i wanted to say.

class bbq today! surprisingly the turn out was quite good. must be because i threatened everybody last friday yeah hahas. 4K rocks. yeah! although its already the end of the year, its never too late to bond. and i'm glad we did. 2 years only got 2 outings . but at least both were rather succesful! and our class fund still have money so i planning another outing when everybody comes back from overseas. hahas. i'm such a nice person.

anyway. today was FUN. at least most of the people made the effort to come, especially since it was held at such a ulu place( tongjing's hse)yay. made me feel that my effort was worth while.

i must thank my mom and dad. haha. my mom for helping me do all the dirty work like washing and marinating the chicken wings in the morning and helping me go market to buy all the rubbish haha. my dad for helping me carry it to tongjing's hse. and my cousin also! cause he went shopping with me in ntuc yesterday. hahas!

yeah and thanks 4K. for all the fun times and fond memories. yeah. and i finished my cards for everybody in time! i was hardcore piaing it lah. i spent a lot of effort , time and money on those sia. slept at 2 the previos time to finish the front side. den slept at 4 yest to finish half of the msgs. super tired today. but it as worth it(: haha. worth sacrificing my sleep for.super happy that they actually bother reading. evern happier when some of them actually thanked me for being so sweet and giving me a hug. was quite surprised when they say they like it. but still, i'm damn happy. most of them thanked me. unlike .... aiyo. hahas.

teachers came too! allan ho, wong jee pheng and ernest chia came. so nice of them lah! although when ernest chia came we were already packing up(cuz we ended rather early) he stayed too play with us LOL. yeah fun.

we still have money left over so i can plan another outing.i'm so nice.haha.<3 4K!hahas

oh yeah. before i went to the bbq i went to this ulu ktv in chinatown. its not too bad for $10. can consider goin nxt time. haha. but then its super hard to find lah. because of the instructions that yvonne give. so lame. make me walk 4 different streets in the rain. RAWR. and my bus have to break down today. so suay.

anyhow, today is a super nice day. thanks everybody, for being a part(:

2008-11-09T10:40:00.002+08:00

ultimate sianess.dun feel like doing anything.
i need to finish tour paper and the cards for my class by today.
shld i go meet at vivo with the facils.
so sian. go also stone. stay at home also stone.
i'm just rotting away. i have no life at all.

so i fuyan my senior again and did this lame quiz she ask me to do.

and the results are: in my previous life, i'm marilyn monroe.

LOL.

2008-11-07T21:15:00.003+08:00

k. my com decide to do it to me again. so i'm using laptop now.
yeah had symposium yest. was not bad actually. seeing that we only prepared it the day before. none of us had scripts. so it was all just impromtu. yay we rocks!yeah. i was preparing the crappy stuff that we were goin to use to put in the classroom until 12 plus at yanyi's house. tired like shit. but we did it! yay.
got back results today. ok. i reached my target of gettin 4 H2.
but then. the problem now is my subject combi. seriously dissapointed with my results. cant help but to keep worrying bout it. argh freak. dun care. i will just earn lots of money this holidays.
yeah. thanks zx! for listening to me crap everytime i got worried bout stuff yeah. (: i shall now pia my guide paper=X.

so now i have to pia my tour paper and the stuff for my class. the fatigue is overwhelming. i need to really stop and rest.

i made a vry funny dream last night. its super wierd. ask madel. she thinks its wierd too. wad on earth was i thinking bout?? gawd.

my problem: i have no confidence in myself.

2008-11-03T14:59:00.002+08:00

I'M MUGGING CHINESE-faint-

lol. dmn sian. so i did this stupid quiz to fuyan my senior. the quiz was "wad letter does your soulmate name start with?" and i ended up with a M.lols. and den the list of suggested got MADELEINE. LOL. my soul mate. the only two person i know whose name start with m is madel and mz. i'm rather scared of both of them. LOL.wadever. wad a wierd quiz.
madeleine is my soul mate LOL

2008-11-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

vry long nvr post le haha. quite afew things happen. but abit sian so dun feel like talking bout it.
sports day yest. was photographer:D. quite fun taking photos. got afew run dmn fast de right, when we took photo of them, their feet both nvr touch ground de sia. woah. dmn cool. the events abit boring but cuz i dun have to stay at grandstand so its still ok haha.

went for class outing afterwards. went sakae eat buffet. muaha. quite nice but abit waste money cuz didnt eat much anyway. most of the class went. so it was quite fun. den went sentosa afterwards. round 16 of us went. haha. didnt do alot of the things we wanted to but den it was still dmn fun. every thing yest was charge on class fund muaha. wanted to cycle but den the shop close liao so we went to play volley ball instead. play for quite long. i think 2 hrs like that.haha. dmn shiok. <3 4K!

went je lib today. was walking around with minzhang.saw alot of his juniors.zzz.hao lian to me he alot of juniors somemore.cant stand it man.got one zabor crazy. go glare at me. siao. must be from his fan club. zz.

den went to play badminton with yanyi and jerrine after wards. played from 5 to 9. 4 hrs dmn shiok. played with this family. the uncles both quite pro.its defineitely more fun playing with people that are pro. at least can exercise more lo. haha. den continue playing with yanyi's friend and his brother. her friend not bad quite pro. the brother very cute haha.walked home from yanyi hse and reached home round 9.30 and was like half dead.. muscle dmn pain.

there's this person who keep botherin me. i cannot tolerate people who do that. especially those i dunno. siao. if he call me again one more time i'm gonna..continue not picking up his calls. -_- at least msn can block. zz. why must he have the same name as my teacher. tsk.otherwise i wont have mistaken him for my teacher already.bother me again, i will..argh dunno.

just one sentence from you and it messed me up again.why must this happen everytime.wadever. you ask me to go find you when i'm free. why must i? why cant you come and find me if you really want to meet up with me. no, i'm not goin to fall for it again.

you are not going to shake me again.

2008-10-23T19:11:00.002+08:00

Angel!: If there were a place that we didnt know of, and there,
on some unsayable carpet, lovers displayed
what they could never bring to mastery here - the bold
exploits of their high-flying hearts,
their towers of pleasure, their ladders
that have long since been standing where there was no ground,
leaning.
Just on wach other, trembling - and could master all this,
before the surrounding spectators, the innumerable soundless dead:
would these, then, throw down their final, forever saved up,
forever hidden, unknown to us, eternally valid
coins of happiness before the at last
genuinely csmiling pair on the gratified
carpet?

2008-10-23T19:00:00.002+08:00

i suck.
ss b3.chem b4. physics c5. bicultural c5.
wtf. dun even have any As at all. screwed up dmn badly.sian.RAWR. faggot.

vry stressed up now.

2008-10-19T15:12:00.000+08:00

ok. i'm sian until i'm playing pinball. can you believe it. ultimate sianess. please crap with me or i'm gonna go mad from the boredom. and it have to rain whenever i wan to go out play badminton. WHY??

2008-10-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

yay! after 3 wks exams are like finally over. gawd.but then it just means tt i'm gonna get back results soon which means... oh freak. wadever wadever. sian.i wan gpa 3.5..): which is so not posible. i screwed chinese, physics, chem,history bicultural. oh man. dun feel like getting back results. cfm kena retain liao zzz. feel like scolding f**k but then i'm a civilised person so i will just say it quietly to myself. fuck. LMAO.
argh freak lah. my brain is screwed up. my whgole system is screwed. i cant sleep unless its past 2 plus to 3. i'm nocturnal.my brain works only after midnight. zz. shall stop complaining.

yest went kbox with yvonne, madel, peishi, aixin and jieen. dmn funny. did alot of wierd things but i cant rememeber wad.before we went kbox we went bowling. or rather me and madeleine bowl. out of 10 times, my ball fell into the gutter 3 times. zzz. i strike 2 times, and knock dwn all the pins for the wo tries afew times. but then the system is screwed. so it didnt register my strikes! RAWR. so my marks got lower than madel's so sad. MADELEINE CHALLENGE YOU AGAIN!! LOL.

oh yah, the desert shop at the place near the link to suntec there dmn nice!! must go again.when i have the money.and all the dmn unglam photos i got taken of are on yvonne's blog. dmn sian.-_- REMOVE!!which reminds me. the place i went to today sold this dmn nice desert. the taiwan mang guo bing! direct translation mango ice. LOL.dmn nice dmn nice. got this very blissful feeling when you eat it. and guess wads the best thing? its fat free! LOL. shall go again. HAHA yvonne you jealous right? lmao.

oh and i went to buy the thing aixin bought for blackheads=.=. dmn ex but quite useful. HAHA YVONNE I BOUGHT IT HAHA MAKE YOU JEALOUS. lols. zzz

ok. cant wait for monday. tml i goin to play badminton with yanyi andsince i promised to bring my sis out, i shall bring her out tml. but dunno go where so sian. and monday! go watch painted skin with aixin and jiahui,den go play badminton with yvonne lydia ltt they all den dunno go where. and tuesday i shall go xiu mei cuz my eyebrows dmn wierd( all dance's fault) with jiahui wuyi and yanyi:D yay clique outings!!!
wah super high now. aiya. why madel always not free. otherwise confirm squeeze time out for you de=D LOL. yay.

wth. my parents and my sis all like glue to tv liao. everyday watch funny shows so sian. now they watching this dmn wierd horror-science fic show on channel 5. so boring. shall start watching fullhouse again after yanyi lends me lols yay.yanyi quick lend me!!lmao.

wad a random and long post. hmm. i think my aunt can get me the job. yay. so i have something to occupy myself with during the hols. or i sure grow fat de. LOL. yay. happy. shall go stone somewhere in my hse liao. muaha.

2008-10-05T20:39:00.003+08:00

心情好or心情坏
有什么好假装
反正天若真的塌下来
我自己扛
天气好or天气坏
有什么好紧张
反正下一秒钟的我
开始开始流浪

我要一个人去东京铁塔看夜景
我要一个人去威尼斯看电影
我要一个人去阳明山上看海芋
拍偶像剧
我要一个人去纽约纯粹看雪景
我要一个人去巴黎喝咖啡写信
我要一个人的旅行一个人透透气

向右转or向左拐
有什么不一样
反正每一条未知的路
都有未来
我和谁在谈恋爱
有什么大惊小怪
反正下一秒钟的我
早已早已离开

我要一个人在希腊梦见苏格拉底
我要一个人的通宵看完鲁迅的背影
我要一个人呆呆的在浴缸里思考阮玲玉
我要一个人的北京探望孟姜女
我要一个人的书局和志摩谈情
我要一个人的旅行
一个人彻底

心情好or心情坏
有什么好假装
一个人的旅行
一个人的行李
一个人的旅行
一个人的空气
一个人的旅行
一个人到底

2008-10-05T19:26:00.002+08:00

i'm sick of this skin already. its so not me lah! shall change it after exams. zz.
and i'm having flu that is so freaking irritating, and a sorethroat. so when i sing my voice turn dmn manly. LOL. so funny hearing myself sing.can self entertain.

everything seems different. i feel funny everytime i walk past the cathay when i go to the museum. i feel wierd when i lag inside lot one. i feel sad when i walk along the road home especially when its dark, and when i saw the cat you stopped to touch. i suddenly dont like watching movies anymore.i pay special attention when i hear someone say yishun or ngee ann. i want to go bishan everytime i stop doing something,when i'm free so i can find you. i start becoming very emo when i hear konayuki or remioromen.i rmb wad you said everytime i walk past aijisen.i feel idiotic when i see that you are online and i dun dare to talk to you because of the things i said. i keep smiling nonstop whenever i see your msg. i feel empty when i'm alone, and it just gets worse when i start thinking about you and that emptyness within me that i cant seem to fill up,that everytime i couples, that everytime i see a freaking word that starts with a j, that everytime i see someone who looks like you, it gets worse. it makes me feel like an idiot, like someone who is freaking insignificant, like strangers.maybe i'm insignificant. but can you just tell me if thats the case. please dont be so nice. or rather, please dont turn cold after being so nice and when i think that i should force myself to let go, you become very nice again. its like my world is revolving around this person who dont care, but i care. alot. i seriously hate myself. i hate it that i changed so much because of you. i hate it that i was so naive, that i let my guard down. i hate it that i'm so weak inside. i hate it that i care so much about wad you think. i hate it that i cant seem to let go. i hate it that i keep hurting myself repeatedly. i hate it that i keep making excuses. but i cant seem to bring myself to hate you. and i hate it that i'm willing to give everything up just for you to be able to see me.

2008-10-03T14:28:00.002+08:00

ok think i'm dead. suddenly realised my english essay like all examples abit of link but also not much arguement. zzzz. luan lai de. LOL. so i shall score for p2! yay.

walked for like 1 hr plus with peishi. frm bukitbatok mrt there to cck! think got more than 15 km. LOL. zai right. but blister dmn pain now. lols

ok i said it AGAIN. 无法自拔了. i shall stop. stop stop stop stop. self hypnotise. tsk.

2008-10-02T20:49:00.002+08:00

according to zongxian, its because :
1. i have pheromones tt i released subconciously to attract ppl which turn out to be wierd
2.maybe this month something wrong with my star sign
3.the gods are against you for some strange reason
4.or maybe you just happen to be at the wrong place at the wrong time

yeah. zz

2008-10-02T20:00:00.002+08:00

zz. now i totally agree.
i have this wierd tendency to attract wierd people.

do i like have" hey i'm a friendly person! come talk to me!" look? nah. do i have a " yo wazzup? i'm interested in strangers.and that means you!" look? no. do i have a " i'm a hippie! i'm concern aout the world! you shld come discuss it with me and i will be very enthu about it! " look? no. do i have a "i like to console people. come tell me your problems and i will try to help you!" look? i dont. do i have a " you think i care if your sister in ipoh have the same name and i shld be concern that she went for a minor sugery" look? no.

the last time i check in the mirror i dont. in fact. i'm a freaking dao person who likes to throw muderous glares at people, and is definitely not a hipple though i'm concern about inflation, dont really like to communicate with people i never even see before in any possible manner, and do not think that its desirable to keep getting approached by strangers.

this is it man. i have enough for it. wads it my face that makes it look so approachable?! wth. i shld just go get a phantom of the opera mask and wear it everyday.

2008-09-30T21:29:00.002+08:00

great. i screwed up my first paper. yay. I'M AIMING FOR GPA 3.5. yeah. hopefully i would still get a b3 or something. wth. results are making me hate studying. wads the kick in studying if all they need is the results. i shall go steal answer keys or sthn. muaha. yay. thanks to zongxian i realise it was 17 days to freedom! yay!
and i cant go china. walau. sian. my mom is totally....... nothing to say...

oh yeah. today is the first day i was actually late. first man. tsk. everytime i tot i wld be late i wld reach school on time. mrt got problem. LOL. today was the first! so i was waiting outside at the skl bus stop with peishi cuz she dun wan to go in. and den. we were complaining today was such a suay day. and then it started raining suddenly! LOL. everybody who went for morning assembly got caught in the rain. dmn funny lah. we were like looking at people running for shelter from the bus stop. freaking funny. LOL.so today is a heng (shuyun) day. LOL

... if you wan know wad the person say, at least dun ask me face to face mah. zzz. its is seriously ... retarded? highly entertaining. LOL. eewww. and i dun happen to meet this kind of people vry often ok?! zzz. i'm not a pervert magnet.=.= dun care me that.

my com is screwed. my phone is screwed. my msn is screwed. and i accidentally got into a very wrong website when i was searching for clay aiken song lyrics. and my sister was like beside me. wad the?!!

2008-09-27T22:06:00.004+08:00

yay new skin! haha

feel so good to be using the com again. my darlin com crashed on me a week ago lah. zzz. its tellin me to dump it. =.=
ok. this week is pretty hectic. basically did nothing but mug and sleep. and i got back my physics test! i failed. surprise surprise. out of 10 marks for definations guess how much got? 1! amazing right. luckily its not counted. which reminds me. its 2 days to exams. which means the hwachong ppl shld be finishing their exams. i think. its so dmn bloody unfair lah.wtf. -curses rv-

funny things happen this week. met alot of dmn wierd ppl.
first up is this freaky uncle.
on tuesday morning, i was walking to the mrt. i was wearing headphones. so on my way, this weird non chinese uncle waved to me and said something.as i was wearing headphones and blasting as usual i didnt hear wad he said. thought he was talking to someone behind me. and when i turned, there is nobody. so obviously he is talking to me? but nvm so i heck him.
on wednesday morning, on my way to the mrt as usual. i was not wearing headphones. and then when i was walking and still happily half way in lala land, this same person waved to me and said something to me again. ovbviously this time i can hear what he says. its only that it took me like a long time to register in my brain wad the person said. guess wad he said? he said:"********************************" haha guess. got a shock sia. wth? so on thursday, i ran to the mrt station. told my mom on thursday night abt it as a joke and she forced my dad to walk me to the mrt on fri. LOL.

second grp of funny people.
i went to yanyi hse to play badminton. before that we went to bukit panjang plaza to get lunch. so i went to the toilet. and then when i walk in i got a shock. i saw two zabors suddenly leaning dmn close together. totally got that gonna kiss each other feel man. the pose is totally just like it. i think they did. dunno. cuz i obviously look away right! i think they did. yeah. omg. lesbian kiss! i bet yvonne is like gonna think that they are hot.

third grp of funny people.
at the badminton court. we were playing badminton. den got this grp of uncles started crowding at the void deck.yeah. a grp. at first its like one or two nia. den suddenly become 5 to 6. they were staring at us. stare still nvm lah. they were leering lah! think they were saying lewd stuff. heard snips of their convos. wad a bunch of chekos. totally 没有修养. ok sit at a distance still nvm. then they moved to the pavilion directly next to the court. sat in one row sia. sit still nvm. the way they sit is...their body face inside the pavilion, then they are turn their heads to look at us. wth? its a very uneasy feelng lah. they made it damn obvious they are leering at us now. wtf? so we pack up and go to yanyi hse. when yanyi went to the seat near them to grab our things when me and jh keep the net, they were like saying“小姐小姐你要不要在玩久一点?" wtf? they shld just go geylang.

fourth grp of funny people.
after like half an hr. we decide to go back to the court to see if they are still there. they werent. but there were a grp of cck sec boys. we were abt to cross the road to go when we saw something dmn explicit. lols. one of the guy pushed his pants down and was like gyrating to the other guys who were sitting on the seats facing him. he think he strip tease ah? its like a public place lah. and its a totally like dmn obvious frm the roads and frm the hdb flats if someone happen to be looking. like tt only still nvm. we crossed the road liao den we hide behind the lifts and was comtemplating if we shld go out. yeah. and when we thought we would, we walk like 3 steps out and saw another guy with his pants round his ankles galloping around the badminton court while shaking his hand above his head. he think he cowboy ah? siao sia. afterwards we abit bu shuang so dont care just walk out use the court. they were smoking sia. wadever. crazy ppl. think they doing strip tease. siao
yanyi said half the guys smoke in sji. didnt know lols. and clay aiken is a gay. he admited it.

oh today is the last day of my museum training! quite sad leh. cuz its like getting quite fun. and i'm not so scared of minzhang liao leh! muahaha. conquered my fear of him. ok luh still abit scared. wad if he suddenly take out a knife lah! wlao. i confirm run like siao. lmao!
yeow ann says he is thinking of taking me out from my grp. cuz the others trainees in my grp always pon then he thinks he is goin to remove them from the programme. woo. luckily i nvr pon too much. and i left early today. so sad. didnt get to take grp photo with the rest. lol.

oh and i need to find an audience for my first tour! must get people i know to be my audience. otherwise i confirm screw up de. den i will fail my test. omg. dun wan. so gonna drag people go support me. hurhurhur. -evil smile-

yeah. i shall continue mugging!suddenly feel dmn thirsty. i shall find my super effective in keeping me awake green tea and start drinking buckets of it again! shall go stock it up frm ntuc tml! haha

oh. somebody went to frenchkiss someone they met during their first date. LOL LOL LOL.

付出真心，才会得到真心，却也可能伤的彻底。保持距离，就能保护自己，却也能注定永远寂寞。

2008-09-23T19:44:00.006+08:00

你在我的芯片上刻了太多的伤痕
让我在运行程序的时候疼痛难受
你的影子占据了我所有的内存
自从你在我心中开始登陆
你就是我工作的唯一密码
我把与你的争吵修改成轻松的视频
我把与你的故事放进硬盘每一个角落
于是，我的一切都瘫痪了
我想重新启动我的系统
却得到了即将崩溃的错误报告
我想把你从我的记忆中删除
却发现
我已将你储存得太深太深
既然众口铄乐
拼不过对你积累的感情
于是，忘记你
是我最终的决定
我将把自己格式化
目的只有一个
一次性的把你删除
既然所有的文件夹里都是你
那我并不害怕回到自己的原本
毕竟
我的文档里不曾保留过任何人
从此
我会关闭你所有的链接
让你再也无法登陆我的心

//西祠胡同

2008-09-21T17:45:00.001+08:00

wah. wad i'm goin to do is like goin to be so 溅. cant believe i can actually think of that. tsk tsk.
muahaha.

i'm a genius.

2008-09-18T18:44:00.002+08:00

english and physics test today.
yeah tests AGAIN. wtf is wrong with our bloody skl man. -points finger-

yeah haha. think wall street is going to crash soon.
US$905b has been spent so far. singapore's 2007 GDP at current market prices was only $243.2b. thats nearly 5 times.
US$85b-loan for AIG
US$87b- financing to Lehman Brothers
US$200b-Fannie Mae &Freddie Mac (wad a funny name for a finace giant)
US$29b-JPMorgan Chase
US$200b- outstanding loans to banks
US$300b-Fedral Housing Adminstration ( to refinance failing mortage into new,smaller loans backed by govt.)
US$4b-local communities

omgawd. tts damn alot sia. because of Lehman Brothers declaration of bankruptcy, apparently, investors who invested in something called DBS High Notes which is linked to 8 big underlying shares, of which 4 major components are like in trouble, are most likely not to get their money back. oh my. and reportedly, the largest single investment was 2 million! omg. all that money into the drain. see lah. who ask them so greedy. invest because got 5% annual payout. OBI. muahaha

how come, the economy is like getting worse, and yet the amount of people becoming freaking rich seems to soar? omg. look at the number of sports cars on the road. pretty ones dont come cheap man. and wads more the price of fuel? wth? how come ppl are getting richer and i'm getting poorer. I AM ONLY LEFT WITH 5 CENTS FOR THE REST OF THE WEEK. gawd. and i think i saw a BMW ROADSTER. omg. my dream car sia! omg omg omg. I'M FREAKING JEALOUS. I WAN TO BE FILTHY RICH. lol.

guess wad. there's this idiot. who spent 10 MIL on a FREAKING STATUE that he place besides HIS FREAKING POOL. end up he realise it was not the one he originally wanted. and then he BROUGHT THE ART GALLERY TO COURT OVER A FREAKING NAKED STATUE. wth. waste money. so much money dun wan give me lah. give me 1 mil i also can go stand beside your pool be statue. wlao.

cant stand this type of people. save the world man. or rather, give me money. save me man.

2008-09-14T21:48:00.003+08:00

lol totally just realised that two paragraph is just like:
"you're everything i want, but everything i cant have."
so true.
yeah. mugging session today! ok. didnt really do much today. did like 3 pgs of electromagnetism assigment cuz i dunno how to do, read nuclear physics, did mcq questions, finished organic chem,did statistics assigment and afew qns frm the mock paper, and half finish my jianbao. zzzz. tts all. after like sitting and rotting there frm 12 plus till 5.
and why do i have to rot there until 5 plus? because of someone who probably like woke up at 3 plus who said he would come and reached at like 5 plus in the end.when i already like so sick of studying liao. zz. wads the point luh?! sian.
disappointed.
omg its 2 wks to eoys. argh. why must f1 be before eoys lah! dun care. i shant waste my 3 days stoning at home. i'm goin to enjoy myself man. totally went to check out spots to watch liao ha.
wth. poly already holidays liao lah. i wan go poly also): like so fun. anywhere is more fun than rv. i wan a life. wad a nice place to spend 6 yrs of your life. haha. wad a nice thing to look forward to. 2 more yrs to go. its like slow suicide. and i'm half gone already.

i'm not going to pay you any more attention. at least until after eoys. HA.
and who's that you?

hahahahahahahahaha. lame zzz.

gervase

2008-09-14T10:32:00.002+08:00

quotes:

“人人渴望有命中注定的人变成自己的终身伴侣。然而，人生中最悲哀的感觉，就是有一天，你忽然发现自己遇到了一个命中注定的人，然后，不管怎样，他就是不爱你。

或者，你已经在感情世界中弹动不得，才不经意遇见命中注定的那人，而他也深爱你。”

i think. in this situation you cant really ask for more right. either you give up, or you do smthn. so stupid. zzz. yah right. the problem exist because dont noe wad to do wad. so lame. wads the point of that two paragraphs lo.

2008-09-12T18:47:00.002+08:00

hahahaha. totally didnt know tt there is someone so shuai living at my blk.帅死了. ha. dmn man luh. saw him yest den take lift up together. den saw him again today. lols! take lift together again. so qiao luh! muahahaha. den he smile at me lol den i was like uh...quite stone diao. and den when he wan open his mouth say something the lift door open so i totally chiong out of the lift. LOL. so scary. but he really dmn man luh. think is some jc de. ha.
actually wan take stairs de. but leg still dmn pain so not possible for me to climb 15 stories up so i mian qiang take lift de lo. LOL.

wadever wadever. muahahaha. i totally wan know wad yvonne's quiz is all about.
gawd. nxt thurs got two test sia. physics and english compo. physics is like nuclear plus definations. wth?! got like dmn lot of definations lah. comfirm die de. i hate memorising stuff. wadever. i'm gonna pon skl on thursday anyway hurhur.
argh freak. totally on wrong frequency.

2008-09-11T18:50:00.003+08:00

finally posting again! hurhur. 2 more wks to end of years*faints* want die le. been sleeping at round 2 for like a week or so. -zones out-

ok. got back report slip today. totally sucks lah. bicultural c5 sia. WTH. study until like tt still c5. wtf. if i dun have bicultural i would totally rock liao.

hist: a1

L.A : a1

SS: a1

physics: a2 ( SUPER AMAZING!! the fact that i flunk my paper so badly when i got 28.5/70 and i still can get a2. LOL.)

maths: b3 (drop 2 grades. wth wth wth wth wth. damn)

chi : b3 ( all because of the compos lah wtf. otherwise i would gotten like a1.=_=)

chem: b4 (piang. i got study de lah. stagnant at b4 for 3 terms liao. crap it man. should have gotten higher for pratical. zzzz)

BICULTURAL: C5

my bicultural simply rocks

so my overall gpa is a miserable 3.3. when i could have atleast gotten 3.5. WTFish. if my eoys dont do well i will jump off frm the 2nd flr of our class block's roof top. yeah. and then they have to tell us that they going to include this essay test for english. wth? my a1 gone liao lah. I DUN WAN THAT BLOODY TEST. argh. so pissed off with the angmoh dept. they think they playing game arh. very fun izzit. keep giving exams. i wan BOYCOTT. boycott cina dept also. give wad reading test. i must get dmn high for that like my hong lou meng test also. i got 19/20 for tt. LOL.

the feeling of not talking is quite..uh not very nice. wrenching. but when i started to get use to it it have to start all over again. wad shld i do? so pekcek.shld wait and see. but i dont wan the same thing to happen all over again. i think i might just end up losing everything.

2008-09-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

i'm dmn pissed. totally feel like bashing my head against the wall. wlao. sometimes i seriously cant stand my mom man. everytime i ask her if i can go out, she says no. no no no no no. say wad, until you 21 everything also cannot. dont nid ask her prom, parties wadever wadever also cannot go. go pierce ear also say cannot. wad wait until i like 21 liao den i can do wadever shit i want. den she wont care. gawd. still say wad. i now concerts everything also dun nid ask her den go liao. zzz. wad lah. i ask you confirm cant de wad. also not like i never say i goin like tt. just that i bought ticket den say nia mah. obviously i wont say first. otherwise i totally like hermit liao lo. zzz.

sian. how the hell am i goin to tell her about dunkit sia. die.

2008-09-02T20:56:00.001+08:00

zz. how come i can see that person who look like you again yet i cant see you. ha.

2008-08-31T21:37:00.000+08:00

ha. cant be bothered to blog. spending all my time watching dramas. LOL. cant believe i'm doing this. ha. crying over the drama. zzz. LOL. watch one litre of tears also cry like siao. LMAO. dun care. why waste time here when i can continue watching. LOL.
yay. kbox tml! 4 more wks to eoys. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的
复杂的梦过的拥有的失去的
怎么忘呢
非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我心要换你的真的不行那么
只得放了.

tagged

2008-08-28T21:56:00.002+08:00

20 facts? zzz.
start time 10.01
1. i like to watch movies. averaged like 1 movie per wk last mth.LOL
2. i just learned taidi, bridge, mahjong and chinese chess within this 2 mth.
3.use to buy comics behind my mom's back. spend like 300 plus =o=
4. totally loves arsenal and hates man united fans. (weisheng i'm talkin bout you!!) LOL.
5. i used to be from rv dance society. changed cca to photography.
6.i want to go travelling around the world next time.
7. i want to visit the emirates stadium.
8. i totally love UVERworld. and jrock.
9. like listening to songs.
10. felt jay chou is dmn shuai in Initial D.
11. ppl always dmn surprise when they know i play dota.
12. own 5 bags in total. of which 4 are branded and given to me as a present. HAHA.
13. used my previous pencil case for 6 yrs.
14.gu zheng means 2 different things to me. LOL.
15. probably goin to get retain this yr.
16.like abstract stuff. grafitti.
17.used to learn lockin/popping but i totally forget how to do it.
18.dont noe why i'm thinking about some wierd stuff half the time i'm awake. liu bai!
19.like names starting with J.
20.think i'm totally a gone case. got stuck in that situation i tried so hard not to get into.zz.
end time: 10.14
fact 21. madel pwn me like shit today in one of the rounds in chess. feels like an idiot.

2008-08-27T20:38:00.002+08:00

die. just pass chem and bicultural. literally just pass. wlao. didnt even expect to be so lousy lah. wad the crap. damn sad. zzz. totally dun dare tell my mom. zzz. but she was so pissed with my sister's result that she never really care out me. lols. haiz. was like still aiming for gpa 3.3 this term. gg liao. this yr sure kena retain. i seriously dun wan lah.argh.

nvm. i'm still living.

2008-08-26T22:36:00.002+08:00

got back first paper. language arts. zzz. sian. did worse den i expected. zzz. at least i know i didnt fail maths or bicultural or hist. getting back bicultural and chem tml liao. die. think i fail chem and physics. . shit lah. dun wan fail anything. feel vry sian diao. DUN CARE.
die liao. addicted to drama keep watching sia. zz.
went jhui hse today woohoo. spam like lots of stuff sia. LOL. dun care. shall spam situps today! hurhur.

omgawd. i got cid report and an one hr script to go. so gonna chiong.

yeah. i know i this past wk super bad mood. so i probably insulted a fair bit of ppl. yeah. i'm sorry yeah. my mood's not getting any better. if you know me you shld erm probably steer clear of me first? i vry easy lose temper de zzz. if i erm, yeah, accidentally insulted you kbei you or anything, i probably didnt mean it. so erm. yeah. look out for my black face haha.

and stop asking me constantly if i have sweets. i dun bloody supply sweets man. if i have i wld have shared. rawr. i'm getting spammed. zzzzzzzzzzz.

WEISHENG"S PHOTO :DDDDDDD

2008-08-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

omgawd. cant believe it. look.

jiachen and weisheng

ohmyohmy. 55c is abit too cheap lah huh weisheng. LMAO. this is classic. lols. cant stop laughing. this is totally priceless. got weisheng along with jia chen as a bonus. hurhur.too bad nvr scan peixian one out too.

LOL. so dmn cute lah. hahahahahahahaha.

tsk. why must it keep raining today. so sian. dmn tired. got a shock cuz of the vibration from the phone when i recieved msg at like 4 am sia. siao. slept at 2. woke up at 4. fell sleep at 5 again and wake up at 8. totally crazy. zz.feel vry sick now lah. zzz. sleepy. NMS training was rather ok. ate a crossiant frm there for lunch today. lols. free bread every sat if got training man. so i nvr have to eat lunch on sat if i have training. LOL. yeah i dmn cheapskate de. my 身价 now is like 0c. which means i'm 无价 de lo. hurhur. yeah. today got fireworks display at stadium there. lols fireworks are nice but think sometimes its abit waste money lols. shall go kiteflying someday. yeah. and i got two free tickets for escape. drag like madel they all go. woohoo. cant wait for sep hols. totally planned outing with jh,wy,hy,lh,yy,shan they all! cant wait lols. but i need to like finish cid and a 1 hr script for guding by sep hols too. argh die.

& i'm missing you more and more each day.

wang lao shi ):

2008-08-22T21:00:00.001+08:00

wang lao shi is gone. haiz. damn sad lah. he is the nicest teacher out of the 4 instructor. will miss him alot. haiz. all the nice teacher are goin off. zzz.
photography is vry nice today. ppl frm canon came dwn with all the pro pro equipment to lend us. yeah. the zai type of cams. drs or smthn. LOL i got the ultra gd one 1/8000 shuttle time. pro. den we went experimenting. super fun. might get one of my drs nxt time. super nice. yeah. den we got this dmn lame competition see who's photo is the nicest. everyone have to take one. yeah i like my entry. but it was in raw instead of jpeg so the noob skl com can see. so my entry wasnt shown. lols. jhui submitted a pict of a cat. yeah. that entry got 2nd! den the teacher ask her wad inspired her. the teacher asked" what made you submit the pict with the blurred wire barb showing the cat inside of the wire fence instead of the one with just the cat?" cuz she took alot photos of the just the cat. and she said." actually it was taken by my friend." LOL. which was me. hahaha. damn funny. yeah.
won two games today out of the three i played. yeah. i'm actually like using my brain more. haha.
keep emoing in class. dunno why. got funny emotions. madel also. haha. madel get better soon!!((:.
and its peishi bday tml!

2008-08-21T18:46:00.003+08:00

omgawd.i'm like brain dead.keep seeing 车 and 炮 wrongly when i was playing xiang qi. lmao. totally dunno wad i was thinking. and got this damn wierd sad feeling the whole day. zzz. keep smashing ppl during badminton. lmao. argh. hate that feeling. spoils mood. and its not even moodswings-_-. zzz.

anyway. got back physics prac. i lost 2.5 marks due to stupid stuff. my table i made it horizontal so minus one mark. add resistance wrongly minus 1/2 mark. it was suppose to be 22 ohm. dunno how i got 23 lah. sian. den my gradient. forget to write unit. so minus one mark. damn sian. cld have gotten at least 17. lols. madel help to calculate for me. if its 10% for both each, i wld get c6 overall if i get 20/70 for my paper. if i get 35/70 i wld get b3 i think.cant rmb.lols. hopefully they wont decrease the percentage for prac. but is like most prob they will lah. wong jee pheng said alot of ppl fail. he say got ppl fail mcq also. one of which i think is me. think i only got 5/15 correct. lols. dunno. damn sian lah. screw maths too. i think i might flunk it worst den peishi. tts like...the ultimate.

damn it. almost cry during maths lesson. kbei me somemore i will totally become damn uncivilised. screw lah. hate the me i'm now.

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念;

end of blocks:)))))))

2008-08-20T21:02:00.003+08:00

LOL. last day of blocks! dmn happy. but i srewed up hist.,maths, and physics. sian liao lo.

went k with jh yy and wy! lol. dmn fun. shall go again during sep hols when i go pierce my ears. lmao.

oh it was 7.5 mil. said wrongly. in chinese its 75 mil. anyway, dun care. omg. guess wad brazil LOST to argentina. 3-0. omgawd. was like thinkin brazil will win 1-0 or 2-1. omg omg omg. luckily i nvr go bet. phew. lols!

nothin to do at night after blocks. so i shall start countin dwn to eoys and to retain. zzz.

ARSENAL!!!

2008-08-18T12:07:00.002+08:00

woohoo. the season kicked off with Arsenal winning the first match 1-0 with 3 points! lol. hope Arsenal can win premier league this year. but critics says the two most possible clubs is chelsea and manchester united. they say Arsenal will dmn hiong and lead in the start but lose power at the back. den liverpool like always say they will win this yr. but they will flop even sooner than Arsenal, like in the middle of the season. LOL. chelsea is like the club that spends the most on players. waste money. tsktsk. LOL. hopes Arsenal wins man u this season. lol

anyway i damn happy we win silver! you know why? BECAUSE WE ONLY NEED TO GIVE THEM 75 MILLION. if we win gold, which is entirely impossible, we need to give them 150 million. WHICH IS STUPID. the govt tax us and set up all the erp bullshit just to give them the money.AND NONE OF THEM ARE SINGAPOREANS. kick them back to china lah. come here earn our money. and this wadever shit minister who made this lame statement in the newspaper said something like if small countries like blah blah and SEA countries like thailand blah blah can win medals why cant we? something like tt. feel like slapping him lah. at least they use their own country ppl lah. wth. use money buy ppl here play for us den give them prize money that you get from taxing us? you think they playing for the pride of singapore arh? you think we vry proud of the fact that we got a silver medal like after 48 yrs? due to some prc who plays as a singaporean after comin here for not more than a year? wth. the silver is worthless. i rather we continue this lack of medals frm the olympics until a true home grown sportsman gets it. otherwise its pretty useless. singapore spirit? wad a total load of crap.

blocks.

2008-08-15T17:53:00.002+08:00

dmn long nvr use com le. like bout one wk. everyday reach home sleep or study. totally no life. sian. screw up my history. how can i lah?! thats like my best subj. to think i use to score 100. wth. screw screw screw screw it. argh. totally sianed.feel like goin somewhere vry high up. den yell at the top of my voice. maybe try jumpin dwn. lols. bungee jumping without the ropes. so cool lols.
bored. nothin to do. dont feel like studyin. so i shall talk about this particular cat.
this cat. is. out. to. break. my. legs. that same cat as last time lah. everytime when i go home slightly later when its alrleady dark i will see the cat. sitting at the same spot. ok maybe not see. when i walk to that place, that cat will mysteriously appear. you think i will keep lookin out for cats meh. dmn lot of times liao lah. nxt time i shall just kick it or trip over it or smthn. it either loves me alot. or it hates me. LOL. omg. and today morn go skl tt time. went to take the lift. pressed opened the lift door see nobody want go in den suddenly see this black cat in the lift staring at me. got a shock sia. didnt wan to take the same lift as the cat but the other lift didnt come up to 14 storey so i took it in the end. den it have to start chasing a stupid fly or bug or wadever in the lift. wads the problem man?! so i can only stand damn still in one corner. cuz this cat is damn fierce de lah. saw it fightin with the cat i always almost trip over. zz.cat fight. lols.

oh. went to download alot of songs! woohoo. still feeling damn sian. feel like seeing you again.lols.
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂

南拳妈妈 - 下雨天

2008-08-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

woohoo

2008-08-10T08:28:00.002+08:00

LOL. it actually rained yest.? LOL. tts like the 2nd time it rained during ndp since like dunno how long ago. ( so says my mom). i'm goin to cut my hair today! lol zihigh. maybe shld just cut short hair den i can spike next time. den i can go and buy the gabsy power spike. LOL

stones.

2008-08-09T11:26:00.002+08:00

still waiting for jhui to send me the pict we took last time of that guy who wore the dota shirt so that i can upload. LOL. we totally is tou pai de lah.hahas. went to hc busstop to take notes frm yida on thurs. and i saw daryll sam and clement. sam looks super scary lah. zzz. realise if i take 100 change to 961 change to 67 i wld probably reach home in bout 30-40 min. which is so much faster lo. but super waste money haha. went out with LTT jiahui madel and jieen after the lame national day celebration yest. the concert was...ok? they got a band that came to perform. the lead wasnt too bad but really sucked for the first song zz. then the guitarist keep zi highin which looks quite stupid. den got this 4 ppl frm yishun sec or smthn who came to dance. apparently is was so obvious who was the cherographer cuz out of the 4 only one of the girl can dance. the other 3 just stones on stage. worse than me. zzz. but not bad lah huh at least still dare go up. den got our senior come back perform lockin and popping. quite good bah. but got this korean guy who lock/pop super pro tt after watchin him totally make me feel the others are crap so i cant really comment. hahaha.yeah. den i went vivo! ate this super scam fish and chips which i share with jhui. totally tio scammed. lol. dmn fun lah. laugh at ltt and jhui bout the si techno and victor suay. LOL. hahaha scandals. totally love scandals after the bsp camp. keep diggin for more. zzz. haha. yeah. wad a lame national day. cant it just rain for once on national day? it nvr does sia. aiya sian. feel like playing dota again. nah i shant. practise self control. hahaha. cuz i'm a mugger! like real-_-
so tired of wishing that you are still here;

rants

2008-08-06T20:10:00.003+08:00

lol. i'm gonna pon skl on friday cuz i predict i'm not gonna wake up. LOL. shall talk bout the yesterday and the day before cuz too emo last time liao. haha. the day before yvonne went home after comin for her free period.zz. lame lah. hmm. actually cant rmb which day was it. she just wasnt there. so i went to sit with peishi! AND DEN. she actually used the youth day stickers to remove her arm hairs?! ZZZ. totally er xin lah!and she still do until very shuang.cant believe her. yeah. den yesterday went to jec play photohunt outside the lan shop there. super lame. den see this grp of act beng buay beng de. they keep walkin past us and keep commenting super loudly. especially the fat one. wlao. kick his arse lah. zzz. he looks like those kind of losers who loses every single game of dota he plays. LOL. oh speaking of dota i saw this dota freak! LOL. he actually printed dota on the back of his shirt. lol? he zhou huo ru muo liao lah zzz. nxt time upload pict HAHA. oh and there's this campaign speech by moquan's darlin forget her name liao. she was like saying this super lame part in her play-speech " every single guy in rv can join the dota competition" den i yelled super loudly lah. den the teachers standin behind all glare at me. LOL. wth? how come only guys can join. she discriminate girls lah can. I WANT JOIN CANNOT AH.she think zabor cannot play arh. so typical lah. only noobs like her cant. zzz.. oops. later i get beaten up by wan moquan. LOL. dun care. who ask her say tt sentence.

有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你把你放在我心中

crap

2008-08-05T19:38:00.002+08:00

life sucks.
i finally quit dance. super relaxed now. yeah my feet. dont noe wads the problem now. wth? in the end it doesnt even matter? tts just crap lah. totally. wads the argument bout now? totally dont get it. please enlighten me.serious. confuse like shit now. and i keep gettin kbei-ed. nice one man. ARGH. i hate this. hate it when situations gets out of control and i dunno wad to do. argh. problem now is? no idea.
problem 2. blocks starts on the 14. and i havent been doin anything consturctive at all. totally rocks. and i keep fallin asleep whenever i take out my work. and i fell asleep during both the english and maths NSW like competition thingy. totally can predict will fall asleep during blocks. die liao lo. zzz.
problem 3. i cant find that bugs bunny or smthn. how am i goin to get my hands on that.zzz.

and i'm tired of waiting. how crappy can life get.

the mummy

2008-08-03T18:57:00.002+08:00

just watched the mummy today. compared to the previous two it's quite sucky lah. no plot de lo zzz.no link somemore. see for shuang ok but cant consider it to be a good .not worth 9.5 zz. the previews showed this death race movie or smthn. super nice. i'm so gonna watch tt. and madagasca 2 is comin out!! i'm so watchin tt too! muahaha. so i shall just start saving up. not eating durin recess liao ahaha. i'm gonna buy the bracelet frm perlini sliver too. lol.
oh yeah. how can i forget. yest saw this pair of twins on the bus. 20+ liao. super cute lah! HAHA.but i wont wan a twin. jared sounds nice. i shall find a friend who has tt name. LOL yeah.

lol.

2008-08-02T22:48:00.004+08:00

didnt want to use the com actually but need to change modem so i mian qiang talk crap abit. damn tired now lah. got this stupid DE ACT thing which was cip den we have to dance 风起云仰 again.zzz. cant even rmb how many times we reuse de dance liao. haha.but i still like it. oh NYCD was not too bad. their TECHNIQUES were DAMN GOOD.10 times better than me. tsk tsk. their alumni even better lah. one word: zai. ahahaha.so i shall be hiong again! den i will be better than "BESTBUDDIES" *hintshints* muahaha.i just forgot wad i wanted to say. LOL.hmm..
oh yeah. i'm not hiding anything really.zzz.
haiyo.i'm bored. wan watch movie tml. hope both of them can go. otherwise i will just...sleep for the rest of my sunday.haha. think my phone is getting crappier. either cant recieve msgs or i recieve them many hrs later. so wierd. and the batt use finish everyday. lazy charge. unfortunately, my darlin mom says that she is not goin to change my phone for me. so if it really dies on me, i'll be phoneless! ah. den i cant talk to anybody in the wee hrs of the mornins liao. so sian. i shall start practicing goin without my phone from today onwards! so if i dont reply or wad, either the phone died one me, or i 'm practising. or. i'm ignoring you. hahahaha
totally random.
oh
yida fanatic. wad a nice phrase. LOL.

randomness.

2008-07-30T19:11:00.003+08:00

haah. keep sleeping in class. no motivation to do anything at all. and the blocks are in 2 wks. die liao. mr wong gave me one to one remedial today. lols. it totally rocks lah. i think my d.c will score liao. muahaha.
sian. i hate it when i need to figure out wad ppl mean. sometimes it's seriously hard to figure out lah. . zz. how will i know wad you are thinkin of if you dont say.lame. and i dont wan to be the one always taking the first step. it gets tiring after awhile you know. ok, you probably wont know cuz you wont see this. but. its nice to have a change. and i dont noe wad to do cuz i am not sure. of wad i want. and wad you think. and everything lah. i hate feeling uncertain..feels empty. hahas.
seriously need something to occupy my thoughts. otherwise i think i will just go crazy. zzz. maybe i already am. haha.
而我已经分不清你是友情还是错过的爱情.

tagged by madel.

2008-07-29T19:33:00.003+08:00

LOL. since darlin madel wan updates, i shall update..when i have something to say. haha
1. The person who last tag you is: madel
2. Your relationship with him/her is: i'm callin her darlin. wad you think? LOL
3. Your five impression of him/her: retard.lameshit.noob.likes to zi high. and zi pai.
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: aiya, too much liao how to remember.HAHA
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you: wads your problem go knock your head against the wall.
6. If he/she become your lover, you will: go check my head out.
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:i dont even wan her.muahaha
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: argue with her everyday cuz i think it will be fun. LMAO
9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: she bully me?
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: teach her vectors?lols
11. Your overall impression of him/her is: you wan me write essay out izzit.
12. How you think people around you will feel about you? think i'm a retard.LOL.which i am?
13. The characters you love of yourself are: ultra undeflatable ego. LOL. no lah. i'm not ego de.
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are: wad do i need to say for.zz
15. The most ideal person you want to be is: i wan be alien how arh?
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them: er thanks? i love you? LOL
17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
this is hard. how i find ppl do when i nvr even tell ppl i got this retarded blog? zz.
1. wuyi
2. jiahui
3. madel
4. yvonne
5. peishi
6. yida
7. zong xian
8. jarvis
9. peixian
10. wayne CHUM
18.Who is no.6 having relationship with? wah nice qns.if i know i'll go beat tt person up. LOL
19. Is no.9 a male or female? the last time i look it was female.
20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? yeah i think not a bad combi leh. must go qian hong xian liao.lols!
21. What is no.2 studying about? physics/chem/geog
22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? 5 min ago.
23. What kind of music band does no.8 like? remioromen i think.
24. Does no.1 have any siblings? yeah.totally like playing bridge with him. lols
25. Will you woo no.3? i woo..dun nid lah. already mine liao.LOL
26. How about no.7? not interested lah.
27. Is no.4 single? lmao i shall ask yv wad she want me say.
28. What is the surname of no.5? YAP!
29. What 's the hobby of no.4? play cello!
30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well? why not? LOL
31. Where is no.2 studying at? rvhs. darlin~haha!
32. Talk something casually about no.1: dance mates! gd friend!<3 wuyi.LOL. and still got MA MA LEMON!!!!
33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
34. Where does no.9 live at? lakeside i think..
35. What colour does no.4 like? shit i forgot.zzz.
36. Are no.5 and 1 best friend? erm not really?
37. Does no.1 have any pets? nah
38. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? LOL. i'm not sure i see this.
39. What is no. 10 doing now? how i know.. dun wan know either. LOL

back to skl.zz

2008-07-28T20:39:00.002+08:00

when i'm at home i wan go skl cuz its vry sian. when i'm in skl i wan go home cuz i wan sleep. zzz. lame-_-. block tests in 2 wks!!

..

2008-07-27T14:02:00.002+08:00

utterly cheated. but i shant be so mean so i wont ask for it back. feel like cursing tt person here since he prob wont see this.zz.wadever. i'm going to hardcore do stuff so i wont think of.
yest was fun hahaha. playing cards at the cathay there lols. reached home round 9 plus. shall talk bout it nxt time haha.

i give up cuz nothin will come out of it.

sian.

2008-07-26T08:25:00.002+08:00

ok i just did it. suddenly got this chong dong to say in the middle of the night. so i said. surprise surprise. nothing came back. hahaha. anyway, i'm too far gone to take back wad i said. so. i'm not gonna deny. i will just remove myself from existance. hahaa. hopefully it will get better? yeah. no regrets. feels more at ease now.

hahaha. think the fever killed all my braincells or smthn tts why i'm doin funny stuff now.haha. will consider becomin a hermit. i finally off mc. lols.

hopefully it will be better.

STILL having HIGH FEVER.zzzzzzzzzz

2008-07-24T15:25:00.003+08:00

i conclude tt i shldnt laugh at ppl. everytime i laugh at somebody somthing bad will happen to me. fot instance. i was laughin at xw white hair on cca selection tt day with zhaowei. tt night i had nightmare. his hair turn black and mine turn white with funny streaks or smthn. totally stunned me into wakin up.and i almost fell into a drain again. i hate drains. why must i keep falling into them?zzz. den i was laughing at those having fever on sat after nms training. i was saying that i havent had a fever for damn long.den on monday i started havin high fever which refuses to go down?! wtf?! totally hates myself. lesson learnt: i shldnt laugh at ppl. which is rather hard leh
=(.

haiz.and now i know why ppl associate throbbing with headaches. totally experience tt. wierd feeling. and it totally pisses me off. cuz i cant do anything productive. so i just keep sleeping. but whenever i sleep i have wierd dreams. seriously wierd. its vry vague but cant consider them all to be nightmares bah. dont know wad was i thinking.lol? haha.its freaking hot outside now(my sister claims) but i'm freezing cold. and is like chill to my bones. so damn sore all over lah. best thing to do now is to sleep but i sleep i dream. even worse.haiz. think my mom sucessfully force me to finish like 3-4 litres of water now liao. half the time i'm sleeping, the other half i'm eating or in the toilet. NO LIFE. i cant stand it much longer sia. i've no source of entertainment. the only thing i can do now is wait for madel to come online so i can laugh at her. but apparently I CANT LAUGH too cuz when i laugh MY FREAKING HEAD WILL KEEP HURTING.
its like 2 hrs before my nxt medication and i already have a burning fever. oh my. wad to do. WHY WLDNT IT FREAKIN GO DWN. argh. pissed off with myself. i'm bored bored bored. ask me to do homework i will slap you when i regain my strength back. hahaha.(<-monotone laughing so it wont affect me)its gonna be one wk. i hate taking medicine. AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, THERE IS SUPPOSE TO BE A PERFORMANCE TML. WAD THE SHIT. WAD I GONNA DO LAH. I WAN TO DANCE. I WAN I WAN I WAN. WTF?!ok i shall be more civilised. i shall use small letters only. wtf?! freak freak freak. haiz. you damn fever quick go dwn lah!!!!!!!!
give me 10 reasons i shld jump off the building now. actually i only need 6 more. feel free to tell me. i will take it into serious consideration. really.

who's gonna miss me when i'm gone-

still havin fever-_-

2008-07-23T20:24:00.002+08:00

argh. the bloody fever wont go dwn. keep sleeping and sleeping. den keep havin this freaking headache. I WANT CUT MY HEAD OFF. zzz. haiz. wad a long day.shall continue sleeping. zzz.

fever

2008-07-22T18:19:00.002+08:00

i had a record high fever yesterday night! 39.2.LOL. den throughout today it was 38+. dont even noe why i go skl in first place lah. i'm an idiot. zzz. today ws totally redundant. but got field trip to vivo tml LOL. confirm goin.the teacher thinks i'm crazy cause i was laughing like siao when i told her i got fever.haha. dunc are. yvonne pon again today lah.zzz. heck her. haha.
had this nightmare yesterday night. but i cant rmb wad is it. just that i woke up realising i got fever round 2.30 am when someone msged me.

and the first person i think of after waking from the nightmare was.

randomness.

2008-07-21T17:59:00.016+08:00

haha. racial harmony can be counted as a success bah. if there is no mistake, i think we earned bout 700++. wahahaha. totally sold out lah! i realise i'm getting better at scamming ppl money. hahaha. i'm a pro. so i shld go learn how to con or smthn.maybe i will get millions before 20 and i can get my SUV. LOL. play minesweeper until forget wad i wan to say. oh i rmb liao. think i'm goin get food poisonin. the otah by 4B was like raw?!basically i just stand there collect money. and lingyun keep offering food to me. LOL. he super nice lah. haha. pon rehersal today cuz not feeling well and went to the shopping centre near KAP with yvonne madel and jieen go eat kfc. heh heh. den we were discussin bout the lame dreams we had lols. shall talk bout it nxt time haha.and we saw some vry er xin zabor from ngee ann who love public displays of affection. she was sittin down den the guy was standing up in front of her. den he put his hand on the handle of the previous chair. den she keep biting it?! got sound somemore de. yucks.totally disgusted.get a room lah. siao de zzz.feeling totally random now so i go take random picts in my hse lols.

totally loves tigger.

veron got this for me! lols

taiwan trip with family!

dunno wad 白色情人桥.cant rmb. did smthn stupid up there lah.so embarrassing.zzz.hopes no one rmbs.lols!

dunno wads wrong with my sis lah.

haha. love this trip lah. got to know nice ppl. lol. hahahaha

the dark knight!

2008-07-20T22:17:00.005+08:00

cuz the movie is just too good, i must talk about it. WATCH IT MAN. totally great. i was watching it with jiahui and jarvis. both start with J de! LOL. anyway. he is late AGAIN. everytime have to miss the beginning of the movie. ARGH. sian zz. and during the movie ppl just have to call me?! uber sian.STOP CALLIN OR MSGIN ME WHEN I"M WATCHING MOVIES LAH. pick a better time or smthn=.=.utterly pissed.LOL
anyway, back to the movie. apparently, the rachel from batman begins is 10X chioer than the one now. the new one has like black eye? lol? too much makup izzit.and there is one natasha in the movie who was a ballerina who had super big boobs?! LOL. though she is not impt, there is a signifcant link between that extra and redundant person and a certain someone who happens to be too. HAHAHAHAHA. -shrugs- the movie is rather tense. totally didnt expect that Gordon wasnt dead. yeah. heath ledger is good. the nurse part was like classic lah!!!totally rocks. wahahaha.and that part where ledger was saying " you complete me" or smthn along the line, it totally blew. LOL. one exists because the other does. blah blah. definitely nicer than batman begins. and the comparision between the white knight and him? classic. hahaha.
yeah. and i'm quite irritated by the racial harmony thing. i spent over 50. though i'm getting money back( definitely) but we totally went over budget. not gonna earn lah. have to carry from lot one back home. luckily jarvis there. totally not enough money lah. since its heavy and not possible at all for me to carry home by myself, the two kind souls helped me carry back too! haha thanks sia. how can you say i'm stony. i'm not-_-. in comparision. haha wadever.uber tired. missed alot of meals these two days. dun feel like eating lols. i think i missed 4 meals. crazy liao. den gastirc pain dun feel like eating even more. hahaha. the yami yougurt is nice. went to eat with jhui after he left cuz i walk them back to the mrt stn. realise neither of us have money.LOL.

from today i gather that: i totally love watching movies. i still prefer fishes to cats.must be i see too many cat fights in the mornings liao. i have moodswings? lol? i'm broke. and i need someone to mug with me. wad a long post.

&the night is the darkest before dawn.

NMS TRAINING!!

2008-07-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

YAY. first training today. arh. its erm, lame? basically, only got 4 rv de. after yvonne quitted. and we are the youngest! die got dai gou between us and the others. got one ang moh den look super cheko. gonna steer clear from him for the rest of the trainins. this is goin take alot alot of commitments sia. NO TIME. zzz. haiz. anyway. apparently rv de cant stay in the same "grp" or sit same table wadever lah. but the others can? arh? now can like tt? stupid.-_-.anyway. i almost fell asleep during the first part. self intro. the rest was like "wow..woah..amazing.. that's good.." blah blah when i was the irst rvian to self intro and said that i was from rv. LAME LAH. zzz. everybody else is OLD.OLD OLD OLD. wadever lols. oh my. and i found out today that i can actually communicate with minzhang! HAHA. major accomplishment. at least i wont think of that super scary dream liao when i talk to him. during year one i dreamt that i was running for my life in a flooded school corridor or smthn and minzhang was chasing after me with a chopper. huge one somemore.he from athletics de leh. how scary is that lah. i sit beside him one term totally dont dare talk to him. LOL. actually. i'm sacred of him. LOL. erm. dont think he will see this so nvm.hahahaha. he wont right? lol dun care. anyway. i got gastric half way through the tour of the museum. until now. pain like siao. cant laugh. cant talk. cant crap. its just pain.pain and more pain.
lols. and i went to the cathay to see the timing for the dark knight. guess wad? full house till 12 am. FULL SIA. woah scary.the other movie also full. didnt noe tt everybody so hiong buy so early. haha. luckily nvr watch. or think i will keep groaning in the theatre and disturb everyone else. hahaha. hope minzhang dont see this. i'm scared of him lah. minzhang-phobia.LOL

stoning..

2008-07-18T20:57:00.003+08:00

HA. thanks wayne. i know i thick skin. but i pro mah so no choice. LOL. argh. goin crazy over the racial harmony day stuff liao lah. suddenly got so many new order list come out. response is better than expected! yay. but i'm dying-_-. so much money lah. some ppl dont noe how to read date de. ask them return by the 16 den they give me today right before cca. stupid juniors. lols.
first time so sad that i have so much money. BECAUSE ITS NOT MINE. argh. i shall scam some. nobody will know right. LOL
totally tired until stone liao. almost walk over a cat which is dumb enough to stay still on the floor when the dist between me and it is like-> me---thecat. luckily my friend call me. otherwise i sure kena scratch by the cat when i kick it.lols. shall continue stoning. den i can probably "accidentally" count the wrong sum of money or orders. LOL.

celine is racist man. she keep complainin bout it to me. LOL. look->

lineline` & when 'emo' is an understatement... says:
me playing tetris now
lineline` & when 'emo' is an understatement... says:
and can't the stupid indians shut up?! damn noisy

and

lineline` & when 'emo' is an understatement... says:
anyway i realised that malays are always having some activities whenever i'm sick
lineline` & when 'emo' is an understatement... says:
then i cant slp.

LOL

lols

2008-07-17T20:40:00.001+08:00

how can i forget to mention it. zhang lao shi's dentures fell out today during qiang hua ban LOL.

racial harmony day!

2008-07-17T19:14:00.002+08:00

yeah. think i'm super pro. finished collating the orders for the racial harmony day liao. yay and i finished makin the coupons or vouchers or wadever for the pre order ppl! wlao sacrifice my free period do such lame stuff lah. zzz. mr wong want teach me physics de lah. if i fail d.c den its the class fault. LOL. wadever. suddenly rmb that like nobody bring toaster. den if monday no toaster den i see how they do. totally dun care. AND I HATE MY SHIFT LAH. make me listen to whines for 1 hr. want me die izzit?! wadever. shall bring ear plugs or smthn.

oh. i shall continue to talk about my zainess. with my ultra good persuasive skils ms kang ordered THIRTY sets frm me! yeah serious. zai right. den her friend buyin too. after tt i see D&T tan. so i make him buy frm me too. den i go ask the bookshop auntie. and the 4H ppl. all in the span of 5-10 mins. call me pro man. the class owes me one.LOL.face it man. i'm a pro.
seriously considerin makin sellin insurance as my part time job since i'm so good. so nxt time you see you shld run far far away. in case i really go sell insurance or smthn.LOL

saw someone who look like him today on the train. den i started laughin to myself. uber loudly.LOL. den the hc guy standin beside me keep starin at me. make me laugh more lah. he nvr see ppl laugh before izzit? so i glare back at him. LOL. think all hc guys are crazy ppl. LOL.

first post! LOL.

2008-07-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

haha. yest 心血来潮 suddenly feel like makin a blog since i already forget wads my lj already lols. so does this answer your question zongxian?-_- lols. anyway, today's journey on 97 was super enlightening. guess whad. after yvonne alight from the bus, i happen to glance to my left and you know wad? there's this bunch of yr 3 guys. got one of them put his phone at his *censored* somewhere there. and the rest are like takin turns calling him. so his phone will vibrate vigourously. and its super obvious wad they were doin lah. unfortunately, poor peishi cant seem to understand. maybe cuz from my angle the view is too good liao. LOL. so i was like sayin super loudly that some people have problems and started laughin my head off. then i have to explain to peishi. cant believe she cant get it when she obviosly more pro bout such stuff. LOL. so i was mouthin" vibrator", and that lame idiot peishi have to go say "huh wad? i cant read your lips super loudly". and there have to be this lame ringtone comin from the phone. which reminds me of wad yvonne saw at bugis last time. LMAO. peishi only understand wads happening when we goin to alight from the bus. think there's some problem with her brain today or smthn. LOL. yvonne shldnt have alighted from the bus lah. think she will laugh like siao when she that. LMAO.

den this person called pang khin yin or smthn frm 4G suddnely say hi to me after i alight from the bus. i think i huh very loudly or smthn cuz he was saying smthn like you dont know me meh? lols? dont even think i know his existance. zzz. lame like siao. anyway. i saw that same bangla again!!! omgawd. i'm scared like shit lah. everytime see tt same person freakin scary. den like to walk behin me. siao de lah. zz. i'm not racist. i just have smthn against that particular bangla. LOL